tuesday:
haiix..today shld be a happy day..as it is our class outing for winning the best class award.the movie me n my fren watch was nice..veri touching and romantic..but after the movie we went for dinner..sit at vivo city de most top open space wait for teacher to take mac for us..while waiting..i wonder where is HER,but donno where..she comfirm with yh.soo we 3 together wait..in the morning at cwp me ,HER n xiiao darlin go cwp,chat quite ok..but then the moment we reach the boots n shoe there,she go with yh without telling us..then others told us dont ps her,but she ps us first lor..I HATE PPL KEEP SAY WE 3 PS PPL WHILE INFACT THEY PS US 3 FIRST!ITS JUS NOT FAIR!OTHER DONNO HER OTHER SIDE(TRUE COLOUR).ARGH..ITS JUS..NOT FAIR!!PPL NOW TRUST HER MORE..BOTHER HER MORE..LAST TIME I USE TO BE TRUSTED BY THEM BUT SHE RUIN IT!SHE DID WRONG DONT WAN ADMIT AND SAID TAT IS WE 3 FAULT..SHE DARE TO SAY PPL BEHIND THEIR BACK BUT DARE NOT ADMIT WAD SHE SAID INFRONT OF THEM!AND FIND LAME EXCUSES!AND PPL BEING SILLY ENOUGH TO BELIEVE WAD SHE SAID.WHEN I WAS DOWN AND ALONE,WHO ACTAULLY BOTHERED??SHE SAY ME ATTENTION SEEKER WHEN I EMO AND CRY IN SCH LAST TIME!BUT I WAS REALLI SAD!!I SWEAR TAT I CANNOT CONTROL MY FEELING TAT TIME!WAD CAN I DO?NOW SHE ACT PITY N EMO AND NOW SHE MORE ATTENTION SEEKER LAHH?AM I RIGHT TO SAY TAT?PPL GAVE US TAT LOOK WHICH I HATE IT!!CAN TELL TAT THEY ARE SIDING HER AND WAS ACTING INFRONT OF MY N MY FREN..SOO THE TOOT!ITS JUS NOT FAIR!!ARGH!!SHE TRY TO GAIN OTHER PPL'S HEART BY ACTING PITY WHILE SHE IS ACTUALLY THE BAD GUY!WAD THE HELL LOR!Y IS THERE SUCH A PERSON IN THIS WORLD??ARGH!!!SOOO TIRED OF TIS TINGS ARHS!!!
iim forgetting u..
ii will try my best!
12:06 AM
THIISH IISH SOO UNFAIR!!IISH THIISH WAD II GET FOR GETTIIN GD RESULTS??IITS LIKE,WTH!HE'S NOT A NICE GUY!HE SAY UNTIL HE VERI GD LIKE TAT!BHB ARHS?!??HE TINK HE TEACHER VERI BIG ARHS??LIAO BU QI ARHS??WHEN HE SAID TAT WE NIIDA TO GO SCH EARLY ON TAT DAY,I WAS ONLI SHOWING A "waaa..o.o''" FACE.AND HE LOOK AT MI AND SAID,"NOT HAPPIE ARHS?DONT GO LAHH."*IITS LIKE WTH?TATS NORMAL EXPRESSION WAD??THEN TAKE MY PAPER..THEN SAY WAN GO ANOT?THEN I BLUR BLUR..THEN HE GIVE BACK..WTH IS THIISH???MII,SHOWING EXPRESSION,WRONG??I GOT PAY ONE LOR!HE TINK HE PAY FOR MY TRIP ARHS?WHEN HE DO TAT,I JUS FEEL LIKE SAYING TO HIS FACE TAT.."KAY LAHH!WO BU XI HAN!"BUT FOR THE SAKE OF MY FREN'S PRESENT..WO REN!!HE SAID THIISH IISH THE AWARD FOR GETTING GD RESULTS.I GET GD RESULT N THIS IISH HOW HE TREAT MII??SOO WADS THE POINT??PPL SAID TAT WHEN A STUDENT GET GD RESULTS OR LISTEN TO THEM,TEACHER DOTE ON THEM MORE.BUT I DISAGREE WITH TAT!!WHEN I GET GD RESULTS N LISTEN TO TEACHER,WAD I GET??BEING IGNORE?BEING SCOLDED?SHOW ATTITUDE TO MI?ITS SOO UNFAIR!AND ANOTHER MATTER!...
WHEN THEY NIIDA US TO CHOOSE 2 OTHER PPL TO SLEEP IN A ROOM,N SAID CANNOT ALL SAME RACES SLEEP TOGETHER COZ WANNA US TO MAKE NEW FRENS N BLAH BLAH BLAH~MI,AND 2 OTHER FRENS WANTED TO BE TOGETHER MAHH..COZ I ONLI NOE THEM,N I DONT WANNA BE ALONE..EVEN IF I AM WITH THEM,I KNEW TAT I WILL BE PS ALITTLE..BUT NVM..I MANAGE TO OVERCOME ALITTLE FEAR OF TAT..BUT THEN..WHEN WE ASK TAT TEACHER WE 3 WANTED TO BE TOGETHER,HE SAID"NO!AIPING OUT,THEY 2 TOGETHER"ITS LIKE!WTF!!!THEY 2 ALREADY DAMM CLOSE STILL CAN BE TOGETHER WHILE I NOT EVEN CLOSE TO THEM NIIDA CHOOSE OTHER PPL??ITS NOT FAIR!IIM THE ONLI GIRL IN MY CLASS WHO GO,AND THEY DONT EVEN PITY MI,BUT MAKE ME FEEL WORSE THEN EVER!I GET GD RESUTLS MY FAULT LAHH??I ALREADY FEEL DAMM SCARED ALONE LE,STILL WANNA MII GO WITH OTHERS??WTF HELL IISH THIISH REASON??THEY 2 SOO CLOSE,STILL CAN LET THEM SLEEP IN ONE ROOM??ARGHS!!AND IN THE END,I ENDED UP SLEEPING WITH 2 OTHER MALAY GIRL WHICH THEY IS IN THE SAME CLASS.N TAT MEANS IIM GONNA BE ALONE THEN EVER!!I DONT EVEN NOE THEM!I DDINT EVEN KNOW WHO THEY ARE!AND WANTED MII TO SLEEP IN A ROOM WITH THEM??ASS LAHH!THEN HE SAID TAT HE NIIDA US TO SIT IN ANY MANNER TAT HE WANTED ASK TO IN THE BUS!MAYBE ONE BOY ONE GIRL OR ONE MALAY ONE CHINESE.WA LAO!WE GO THERE IISH TO HAVE FUN WAD??Y MUST FOLLOW SUCH RULES OF HIS?THEN OUR AWARD IISH LIKE NOT A AWARD,ITS A TORTUREMENT N PUNISHMENT.II NIIDA BE ALONE..??Y?IIM THE ONLI GIRL IN MY CLASS TO GO WHILE OTHERS HAVE FRENS OF THE SAME GENDER TO ACOMPANY THEM.STILL WAN MII TO BE ALONE OUT THERE??SOO UNFAIR N UNREASONABLE??WANNA PPL TAT DONNO EACH OTHER TO SLEEP IN A ROOM BUT LET THE OTHERS TAT KNOW EACH OTHER TO SLEEP IN ONE ROOM BUT LET MII TO SLEEP IN A ROOM WITH 2 OTEHR PPL TAT I COMPLETELY DONNO WHO THEY ARE!WAD IISH THIISH??IISH THIISH FAIR??TELL MII!IISH THIISH??OH GOD..Y..?Y MUST U TORTURE MII LIKE TIISH..
ii noe tat iit iish iimpossible for us,
therefore,i dont wanna tink too much,
as iit wiill onlii hurt mii more than ever.
i hope i can..
12:13 AM
haiix..donno y am ii missing hiim..i tot i would let hiim go easily..i tot its over..but y am ii missing hiim EVERY SINGLE DAY!its soo hard to let hiim go..i donno y..iits jus soo hard..i realli wanna noe if he hate mii..if he realli love me before..n wad he said last time is true or not..i realli am veri confuse..maybe he fall for another girl le bahh..i noe iim ugly..iim not fit for anybody..iim soo ugly loh..iim bad..iim worse..iim terrible..=( theres soo many more cute n chio bu out there..he wont fall for a girl like mii..soo ugly..soo short..=/
ppl will hate mii..i jus knew it..T.T i noe i sux..i hate myself..=/
iim damm ugly,ii noe.iits impossible between us.i jus knew iit.
i realli wanna noe how u feel towards mii all tis while..maybe iim right bout u falling in love with another girl?
nobody wiill fall for mii..ii jus knew iit loh..even though they said they had fall for me n will nvr change their heart or wadever,eventually they will change their heart faster than ever..
they maybe see wrongly..tot ii was gd or chio or cute.but when they see clearly,iim jus soo UGLY!
iim hopeless..iim useless..ii noe..
when ppl say i most chio or cute in their eyes,its jus being sarcastic of them.dont say it to me if u dont mean it.
i lost confident in soo MANY tings!!haiix..wad am ii iin other ppl's eyes?a shit?arubbish?or wad?
sobx niia..ii noe iim ugly..jus dont hurt mii by beiing sarcastic.n u dont nid to tell mii tat iim ugly coz i already knew iit.
who am i to u anw? ;
would u ever give a damm care bout mii? ;
tell mii the truth will u? ;
pls.
6:52 AM
hmm..jus done creating tis blog post.took hours of myy time..x.x''
hahax..
haiix..
ii jus wanna ppl to noe her truth colour lor..ppl trust her more than me!tis is soo frustrating..the good guys,became the bad guys.while the bad guys,became the good guys.iits soo..wth?
i once trusted her..but then..i was wrong..she promise me not to tell anyone bout my secret nomatter who is tat person,in the end,i actually heard a person telling me about my secret!n i heard from tat person tat she dont even CARE bout my secret n told tat person i wont mind letting tat person noe!SHE PROMISE ME NOT TO TELL ANYONE,YET SHE"SHUO HUA BU SUAN HUA!"y is there such a person..T.T
ii wont trust her lerhs..NEVER!
dont wanna talk bout her liao..coz it will onli ruin my blog..
hmm..lalalas~donno wad to write..XD
tmr going "sch re-open" lols..
wonder wad will happen..=/
hope everyting goes smoothly..
iim verii scared of my EOY results..ii scared ii faiil..coz ii got soo many qns donno how to do!!T.T
*pray*pls pls pls...i hope ii wiill pass my EOY with flying colours*pray*
haiix..ii noe iis iimpossible liao..=(
i realli wanna noe iif u truly love mii before;
did not lie to me bout wad u said to mii;
still love me anot.
2:50 AM
